“Having no friends is great”

 Yes, you heard me right. Having no friends is great, it’s was a rough emotional past year in 2022. Loosing friends was one thing but loosing myself was much worse. The rough realisation of having to stick it out and finding things to fill up my time instead asking a “friend” to hang. 

My problem was caring too much which came around and bit me in the ass cause spending quality time and disregarding my own emotions for my friends well-being. I never gave two shits if I was okay. If my “friends” were going through something I’d take their problems on-board and try resolve it for them so in other words if they were happy, I was happy.

Growing up my family always taught how it is important to serve people if it’s cooking them dinner or having the door open 24/7 cause we knew everyone had their own personal battles and we’d do close to anything to help. 

So what did my year look like and what did I do for myself? As a child I always hid my emotions because of many reasons but I felt as a adult it was ok so I spent the first six months dwelling and beating myself up (emotionally and verbally).